Quick words before I start this post:
The world is going through some tough times right now due to the COVID-19. Aside from the danger and physical symptoms of the disease, we must make sure we don’t neglect the mental impacts caused by the overall stress and the loneliness created from the social distancing. Please reach out to your loved ones and important people in your life and remind them of your love and stay connected with them. I wish you, your family, and your friends the best health.

This post is a little different from my previous posts. It’s not specifically tied to any gaming analogy or ideas. The purpose of this post is to share a recent experience from the “Life of Southpaws” (watch for this blog post tag in the future!). I hope the sharing of my story can bring different inspirations to you.

The past week has been an eye opening experience for me. This particular experience did not directly relate to the serious COVID-19 issues going on in the world. My experience was building up from several different events throughout the past weeks and finally triggered when I had more time stuck at home to my own thoughts.

Over the past weeks, my most recent startup ran into funding issue that ultimately led to its unfortunate closure. I have received an abundant amount of love and support from my network of friends and family. It was an amazing gift and I am truly grateful for each and every one of you. Throughout this time, there was a lot of encouragements and suggestions on ways to move forward and what my next step should be. While all these came from love and support, I eventually found myself being overwhelmed from the ideas. I asked myself “why do I feel this way?”.

For days, my mind was wrapped in an irritable fog. For days, I turned to different meditations and walks in nature, yet nothing seemed to be able to break me out of it. Then out of nowhere, everything seemed to line up.

I came across a guided meditation that talks about how many of us live our lives in pursue of other people’s dreams and goals. This can be due to an eagerness to seek connection and the feeling of being needed and wanted. And I felt deeply connected with that. With each new idea and suggestion I received, I felt an urge to make those into reality, and yet deep down, I know these are not my own goals or my own dreams. And in reflection for my past, I realize I have taken on many journeys for other people’s reasons. This was the awareness I needed to shift my mindset.

Then later in the day, a call came from a friend who recently returned from a trip for a self development course that I have taken in the past. My friend, with his voice beaming with energy, reminded me to live my life with urgency and live each day to its fullest. He reminded me of my dreams and commitments to make contributions to world. This brought me the determination to create something meaningful.

Characters in a TV show and my favorite movie, The Greatest Showman, displayed such passion and conviction to what they do and believe in. And I found myself realizing that this is something missing in my life. This brought on the hunger for more passionate and excitement in my life.

Then a call from my buddy reminded me of a life goal I have. Over the call, I explained to her the meaning and inspiration behind this vision of mine and why I feel so passionate towards reaching this goal in my life. I felt excitement and energy bursting out as I continue to tell her more and more about it. And this call helped me find my purpose.

This is a deeply rooted passionate vision I see in my future that I have always told myself I am years too early to start. On the call, she got me questioning whether that was a reality or a limiting belief I imposed on myself. And this time around, I saw this direction in a new light. I saw a path of smaller steps that I can start taking toward this vision of mine.

And just like that, I have found new energy and excitement in my life! Just seeing that I can start taking steps towards my life goal brings such an amazing feeling and joy. And it makes me appreciate the abundance of opportunities and potentials we have in our lives.

Stay tuned for my next post if you want to find out what this vision is! 😛

ps – For my close friends and family reading this who may be worried about the financial implication of me diving into a new venture… Don’t worry, this will just be a hobby / side-gig for now. I will be making a living through other more stable means.